Friday, May 23, 2008

What I Deserve

A couple weeks ago, a friend was commenting on being excited for us with the pregnancy and what a blessing it is to be having the baby. He said, "You deserve it."
While this friend was being genuinely being sweet and affirming and meant to just be encouraging, I was thinking more about it on my walk a few days later, and it has been coming back to me since...
The thing is that I don't deserve it. I don't deserve any of the amazing blessings God has poured out on my life. Really. I've been a pretty good person, in a lot of people's minds, but I'm nowhere near to being as loving as I was created to be. I can be stubborn and prideful, and mainly, no matter how hard I work at being perfect, there is just nothing that is within my human ability to earn from God. He is holy. He is perfect. He is love. I am not. In fact, the simple fact that I so often try to live out of my own resources rather than live in full dependance on Him is enough to prove that I fall short of His purposes and plans and am owed nothing.
Grace challenges me. Receiving love and love that I have in no way earned is somehow harder. But nowhere does God tell me to do stuff to earn His love. He asks for my love in return for His. He asks me to follow Him, rely on Him, and all service I give Him is empty is it doesn't flow out of a heart of love and grace.
I don't know why God has so richly blessed me. There are certainly others who seem so deserving of more blessings and less hardships. And I know that until Jesus returns, there will be the effects of the Enemy in this world, though we hope in the One who has ultimately already overcome!
Anyway, since I deserve absolutely nothing, His grace and His blessing in my life truly overwhelm me! John and I are so thankful for Baby Snowden coming, and I hope we never forget that this is God's gracious and undeserved gift in our lives!

Thursday, May 22, 2008

New Shoes

So, I bought a pair of sandals Monday night. They are just a flip-flop style, but I had to buy a size 9! (Usually wear a size 8; they didn't have half sizes.) Perhaps those particular shoes are just sized oddly. :) That's what I'm telling myself anyway!

On a serious note, I am praising God for good health reports for both my brother Ben and me this week. My brother had a mass removed from his bladder last week (after having a malignant mass a little over a year ago), but the biopsy came back totally clear! So, no cancer!!! Mine was more minor, but I had my glucose tolerance test last week, and it came back perfectly normal! Praise God for his hand on our family!

Monday, May 12, 2008


My mom really blessed us by coming out to help for a few days this past week. She painted Baby Snowden's room, which is very exciting! The pictures don't do the colors justice. It makes it feel like a whole new room, and it is very exciting!

We went out Saturday night to a Moroccan restaurant to celebrate Mother's Day before Mom left Sunday morning.

It was really a HUGE blessing to have her here and to have her help!!!

Yesterday was my first Mother's Day, I guess. I know we can't actually see Baby Snowden yet, but I can tell he's here. :) He has spurts when he is pretty wiggly, and John has started to play a game to poke him, and he responds with kicks and such. (Keep in mind, I'm the intermediary for all such games!) It's really fun knowing he's in there! John got me a really nice basket of plants to bring a little life to Baby's room for now, and you can also sort of see Baby's crib, which is now assembled and ready, in the picture. I also got another brilliant Mother's Day present--I guess my grunts and lack of speed and agility in picking things up lately has not gone unnoticed! :)